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I’m on my flight to Canada in less than two weeks… how fast time flies! I’m really confused as to how I am supposed to react. It was as if a feeling of excitement, anxiety, loneliness, anger, happiness and <insert some other probable emotion here> were all mixed in a boiling pot stew with a label “Mixed Emotions”, ready to be served in hot dishes.
To what I’m expecting is… ? Actually, I have no idea either… Well, except for the maple leaves, maple syrup, cold atmosphere, the snow, thick sweaters, the Niagara Falls… Nope, not too much idea.
But I’d leave a lot of people close to me behind… Family, relatives, friends, HER, friends. [Nah, I got over HER.] Include enemies and haters as well. I don’t care. They don’t care. Nobody cares.
I do hope I get that Joint Degree there. Plus I do hope to get to take that minor in Philosophy. I’ll do my best. ‘Till my next blog entry.
Date of Post: 10.30.14
“On Poem Analysis”
by Zanyx Royalle
1. Such talent it is:
2. To analyze
3. Every poem given
4. For us to study,
5. For us to interpret!
6. Gives me much inspiration,
Analysis of the Poem:
On a literal level, we see an image of the persona who admires someone who could actually read, analyze, and interpret poems properly (more probably they were classmates and the professor gives them poems) – something that the persona has a hard time doing, well perhaps because he was over-reading, which we may see from the persona’s tone. And yet, the persona may have a hard time having a close reading over the poems, but still he feels an inspiration (an inspiration for reading the lines of poems more closely, even writing perhaps!) through him/her because of how the way he/she admires someone else for having to have such a talent. In fact, the persona does call “reading and analyzing” poems a talent, well perhaps this someone he/she admires is not even into the course/study/field of poems and yet, was able to read and analyze poems. The persona feels so admired that he could no longer say another word but “outstanding”!
On a figurative level, we may see that these poems are actually challenges and obstacles in life – this is the way the persona sees poems because he/she feels that the poems really are hard to understand, very subtle and needs time to fully understand, analyze and appreciate. And to give it time to study and time to interpret was actually giving it time to plan on the course of action to take and what thing one should do in order to overcome this challenge in life. The persona admires him/her because of the way the challenge/plan was executed. And so, even if the persona has these challenges in life that he really has a hard time on, he/she struggles because of the inspiration he/she has. And not only the persona calls the person he/she admires to be outstanding, also himself/herself for he/she has gained confidence at some level to be able to overcome these challenges in life.
But thinking about the poem a little harder, there are still more to poems and challenges in life. So what do you think it was that was so subtle to even notice?
Date of Post: 05.01.14
(1) Once there was a farmer who was living all by himself. He had no wife nor children. He had no more family because his parents and relatives all died in the recent war. So he was all alone. But one thing remarkable about him despite being alone is that he is one hardworking man. He knows he is poor but he was motivated to work, to plow his land, to plant crops, to take good care of them. As a result he had bountiful harvests. Although with much hardwork, he didn’t grow rich. He continued to be poor, though he was still able to sustain living.
(2) A fisherman just came from a fishing convention. He was travelling alone by the road when he saw the hardwork of the farmer, he was planting his crops even under the hot sun. The fisherman saw his determination. Not knowing that the farmer was poor, he compared himself to him.
(3) “If I was to plant just like the farmer, I’d grow rich just like him!” the fisherman said to himself. He went straight home and prepared the biggest fish he caught in the convention for his supper.
(4) The next day, the farmer was again out under the sun, planting his crops. A businessman passed by while driving on his way to his conpany until he saw the farmer’s dedication for planting. But then again he focused his eyes on the road and ignored the farmer. He arrived at his company ten minutes earlier than usual.
(5) At the businessman’s meeting, he received news from his co-worker that his company is on a state of bankrupcy and that it owed a huge amount of money. There was no other choice but to close the company down.
(6) The businessman said to himself, “It seems that I’m losing my job. I need to get money, I’ll die without it!” On his way home, he said, “I guess if I want to be richer, I’ll have to plant just like what I saw the farmer doing.” He went straight home and planned out what to do.
(7) Going back to the fisherman, he reeled his line on the water by the bay where he lived. He immediately caught one fish. But the number of fish he caught remained to one. It seems as if it was the only fish left. He felt a little disappointed. But that was all he has now. With his bare hands, he extracted the fish bone out of the trout that he had fished up and burried the bone under the soil at the back of his house.
(8) The businessman, on the other hand, burried his last five-dollar bill under the soil at the back of his house. He had no more money left.
(9) Day by day, the fisherman and the businessman took care of what they planted hoping it would sprout out to be a good Fish Tree and a good Money Tree. They watered it every single day, they nurtured them as if it was their own child.
(10) After a week of hardwork, the fisherman saw his plant to bore dead fish as its fruit. The businessman saw five-dollar bills sprout in his tree. Both of them were happy and are filling rich.
(11) The fisherman was so happy to see this and picked up the fish that sprouted from his tree. He went to town and announced the good news to everyone. He tried selling the fish that grew on his tree although his offer was turned down because of the horrible stench the fish emitted. He felt sad.
(12) The businessman picked the money that grew from his tree and went to the bank to deposit his money. He wished to find out how much money he has earned. The teller of the bank told him that he could not deposit leaves in the bank. He felt sad.
Analysis of “Perspectives”
The usual view we have of a farmer is someone who works at his farm, is hardworking, would work under the sun for too long, for a good harvest,t o sustain himself.
The fisherman that most of us would expect is someone who fishes up for a living and would sell the fish he caught in the market. But we get a different glimpse of a fisherman here.
The businessman that most of us expect is someone who works in a company and does great in management. But we get a different glimpse of a businessman here.
Both the fisherman and the businessman saw te farmer’s dedication thinking that they would grow rich if they plant, just like the farmer. Little did they know that he was working to sustain life, not to be rich. The fisherman had the same condition with the farmer. The businessman was rich but grew bankrupt. He wished to be rich again.
Botht he fisherman and businessman had a wrong interpretation of the farmer, whose goal is to sustain living, not to be rich. Because of this misinterpretation, they thought that if they was like the farmer (planting), they would grow richer, which was their goal all along.
The fisherman, because he didn’t have any seeds to plant with, decided to plant a fishbone in hopes that it would grow into a tree with fish as its fruit. The businessman, because he didn’t have seeds as well, decided to plant a dollar bill in hopes that it would grow into a tree with money as its fruit.
This is where the mode of magic realism takes place. They were hardworking enough to nurture their plants that it bore the fruits they desired, fish and money. Just like the farmer and just like all of us, if we work hard, we will achieve the goal we truly desire and deserve. The fisherman desired to have fish for fruits, the businessman desired to have money for fruits. They got their wishes, although is this what they really deserved?
The fisherman was turned down when he offered to sell the fish that grew in his tree. It had fouling stench! It is basically trying to be someone you are not. The fisherman tried to be a farmer, but he wasn’t a farmer. Planting fish was idiotic. It couldn’t grow into a tree. But it’s at least what he wants. His efforts did bore fruit, but wasn’t the fruit he was actually expecting. He didn’t deserve to get something he doesn’t really deserve. He’s a fisherman and he must fish, not plant! It’s not his job after all so he gets something he doesn’t want. The stench of this fish was a symbol of his failure. He failed to be someone who is not.
The businessman found out that he wasn’t actually depositing money in his bank, but he was actually depositing leaves. He was similar to the fisherman, being someone who is not.
The title, “Perspectives” has three implications:
1. The fisherman and businessman saw their fruits according to their own perspectives, as fish and money. But it wasn’t the case when other people had seen their fruits.
2. The fisherman and businessman, for them, makes them rich when they plant. But it had a different perspective for the farmer, it was his way of living to sustain life.
3. Hardwork and dedication had been different in the perspectives of the farmer, the fisherman, and the businessman.
What else do you think of the story? Let me know.
Date of Post: 03.30.14
It has already been a week since the semester just ended. I have been waiting the whole week for the release of my final grades. I was feeling a little excited, and anxious at the same time, hoping to get the grades I expected, which I knew I deserve.
For the past two days, our school’s online site have been dropping hints about our professors encoding our final grades already. However, we still couldn’t see them until this Saturday. For the subjects you are/will be taking, it has three basic statuses: ‘N’ (Not Yet Taken), ‘C’ (Currently Taking), and ‘P’ (Passed). For the current semester, all subjects are under the status ‘C’ throughout the sem. But for the past two days, the statuses of some subjects are changing from ‘C’ to ‘P’, which gives students the idea that their professors have already uploaded their grades and have passed the subject. Still, we couldn’t see our grades.
Once all the ‘C’s of the subjects changed to ‘P’s, the semestral average would appear. The lowest possible grade would be 0.00 while the highest would be 4.00. If your semestral average reaches 3.35, you become an honor student. I still remember how grade conscious I was back in high school, even until now. For the past semester, I didn’t reach this 3.35 mark. And when I saw my average this sem, I felt disappointed to see that I was 0.1 mark short in reaching this 3.35. Once again, I feel devastated about this. It made me sad deep inside, but I didn’t show it to anyone. I keep showing my ‘always happy face’.
I meditated for a while, thinking what were the wrong things I have done for the semester. Throughout this mediation, I first thought that it was my subjects and professors that was the problem. These were some of the petty things I would rant about. But I thought deeper. I went back to the start of the semester. I remembered that I was always feeling motivated to reach the 3.00 mark (my average last semester was less than 3.00). I never had this goal of being an honor student back in the previous sem, same goes for the start of this sem, that is until it all changed one day. I’m a CS Major but then I got the feel of Math, and that is why I wanted to double major in it (not shift, I loved CS). That’s when it hit me, to double major. I talked to the department chairs and said that if I wanted to double major, I need to take extra Math subjects for the next two semesters. I’m already full load by the next semesters and I still need to add additional subjects, so I had to overload them. But before I could overload, I needed to be an honor student. That’s when I decided I need to become an honor student for this semester so that I could easily overload subjects. The semester was rigorous, hard. But when I saw my average, I felt disappointed that I’m not an honor student this semester. But does this change the fact that I’ll pursue a double major? Well, NO!
I’ll continue my fight to be able to pursue this degree. I know I can do this. Good thing there will be load revision forms I could use to overload my subjects. But the fact I still wasn’t an honor student, crushed me. However, I still won’t give up on this degree.
Looking at the bright side, I think that my prayers were still answered. Before the sem started, I wished for an average of at least 3.00. And I got my wish, 3.25 ain’t bad. It’s even greater than 3.00! I’m happy for my accomplishment. I even felt more motivated to strive harder the next semester. This is I guess what is more important than being an honor student. I know I will still get my chance. I just have to work harder. I don’t have the right to rant as of the moment. I have to be grateful. God is good.
Date of Post: 03.28.14
(1) T’was the first year of the 22nd century that the Earth’s population has become dreadful. The population has boomed to a very huge number that it almost approached infinity. Scientists have calculated a formula that will compute for the number of babies born per minute. They modeled a function that predicted the population count of Earth by the end of the century. It was f(x) = e^231, such a great number, even a standard scientific calculator couldn’t display.
(2) It was found out that there had been an unknown reason for the high birth rate of the Earth’s population. Even the greatest computers and machines couldn’t decipher this reason. All it can do is to compute for the birth rate, the death rate, the population of Earth by the end of the century. The death rate in percentage was found out to be a number that almost approached zero, such a small number. The scientists couldn’t figure out what to do, whether to configure their machineries to the extent that it could figure out the reason to the population’s big boom, whether to devise plans to minimize the Earth population, or simply to abandon the study. They were getting more and more confused by the minute. It became harder and harder for them to concentrate.
(3) Brought about by this quick escalation of population, the Earth has become a huge mess. There was chaos everywhere! Wars, terrorism, landslides, deforestation, pollution! The Earth was no longer a habitable place to live in. The huge population also caused the amount of Oxygen to drop steadily. In effect, more and more Carbon Dioxide are produced.
(4) Two years after, the death rate has also risen. Scientists could no longer find ways to improve a better Earth and thus, more and more people, especially young children, are dying.
(5) But a group of five secret scientists who were childhood friends got together in a secret lab. They had a meeting on the crisis Earth is facing.
(6) “This is the worst I have always imagined,” Luke exclaimed.
(7) “Well, this is probably the worst!” Evan complained.
(8) “What do you propose we should do?” Iris asked the group.
(9) “Well, we are scientists! And we should invent something!” Eric encouraged them.
(10) “This is not going so well, dear. I don’t think it’s the best plan,” Iris opposed.
(11) “I agree. It’s not so brainy to come up with another invention on such an experimental stage,” Rica agrees.
(12) “I think it is much better to get out of this crazy joint… Get out, I mean get out of Earth!” Evar proposes.
(13) “Ok, so the five of us can find a way to get out of Earth. But haven’t you thought about the other people?” Luke questions his proposition.
(14) “It’s either we get out of this planet or everybody dies and humanity ceases to exist,” Evar responds.
(15) “There is no more hope for the people. I really think it’s better for us to get out of here. Well, at least we can save humanity by looking for a place where man can live,” Rica proposes.
(16) All five looked at each other and within the next 48 hours, they made a rocketship that will help them escape Earth and find another planet to live in.
(17) “Food and Water Supplies?”
(23) The rocketship blasts at full power and in no time at all, they were already at space. They encircled the different galaxies: Milky Way, Andromeda, Pinwheel, and other galaxies they have discovered.
(24) They have been in space for almost 13 Earth years and still have not found a planet where humans could live. They orbited the Earth once more to check how things are.
(25) “According to my radar, there is no one here anymore,” Luke says with a frowning face.
(26) “Looks like all have died,” Rica laments.
(27) “Then it’s up to us to save humanity!” Evar pushes.
(28) But the engine’s fuel is steadily dropping. Their food and water supply levels have almost approached zero. The amount of oxygen in the ship was also down to zero. No one could breathe anymore. They have suffocated, hungered, thirst, died.
(29) No one was running the ship anymore causing it to crash in a nearby planet called X-37. The rocketship crashed into tiny pieces when it had fallen.
(30) In X-37, it was all quiet. There was no one there. But something was actually growing behind two purple rocks. It was a plant-like organism. It was color green.
Analysis of “What Lies Behind”
“What Lies Behind” is a science fiction story about the most probable things that could happen to our planet in the future. (1) The population of the Earth has escalated with a big boom. (2) The death rate was set to a minimal. (3) A group of five decides to leave Earth in search of a better place where man can live.
Basing it with the current population of 7-8 billion, I can foresee that the Earth population will increase to a greater amount! I have a standard scientific calculator that computes e^230 = 7.72 x 10^99. My calculator could no longer compute for e^231, which is farther a greater number. I have also described this number that will approach infinity, such a huge number.
And to emphasize this huge population, I intended for a small death rate percentage, something that will approach zero, 0.02% for instance. It’s a very very small number which will intensify the population to the highest number possible.
This great number of Earth population will hopefully lead to the devastation of the Earth, which will result to an utter chaos! Because of this, five scientists have decided to group themselves and figure out a solution to the problem.
There were no longer other ways to restore the Earth they had once known so they decided to build a rocket which they would eventually use to get out of the planet and find a new place to stay.
There were five: Iris, Eric, Rica, Evar, and Luke. All of them had four letters in their names. It may have to say something that they are the ‘chosen’ ones to find a better place, but they ended up in failure. I could use different names as well like Armand, Ronald, Solana, Calleb, and Tyrone. It doesn’t really matter how many letters they have in their name, as long as they have equal number of letters. But I intended to use those names because if you would notice, the last letters of their name are S, C, A, R, and E. It spells the word, ‘SCARE’. It is pretty much that a big scare is brought to Earth.
They have been in the rocket for 13 Earth years, such a long time. Their supplies (food, water, oxygen) have already dropped to zero that they have all died. It says something to us that there will always be a limit. There are limits to what we have. It is unlike the Earth’s booming population that it multiplied fast and that the numbers were at a geometric. Their supplies were approaching zero while the population was approaching to infinity. They are different! There will and always be a limit!
Because of the lack of food, water, and oxygen, they died in the rocket ship. It didn’t say anymore who died first. What matters is that everyone in the ship will eventually die. It says something of man’s human condition, that all of us will eventually die, no matter how young or old we are, no matter how prepared we are or not. We will all die eventually. No man is immortal, so everyone on Earth eventually died because it was no longer a habitable place to live in. It also pretty much tells us that no one can escape death. Even though the five managed to get out of the unhabitable Earth, they still died in the end, because that is man’s true human condition, something we can no longer change, even with the help of science!
In connection with science and limits, it also tells us that there is always a limit even to science. Science cannot do all things for man. It couldn’t decipher the reason for the Earth’s big population boom. It couldn’t suffice the supplies man has. It couldn’t even save man from death! There is always a limit to everything, even in science!
The last two paragraphs describe the planet that the ship has crashed into after the death of the five. It was X-37. And beyond two purple rocks was a plant-like organism and it was described as green. It just says that it was a plant-like organism and was color green, but it didn’t say it was a plant and that life could exist in this planet.
There are two perspectives. If you look at the optimistic side of it, you would see that this plant-like organism could be a plant and that life could exist in this planet, and so evolution would undergo once again until man could exist in the planet anymore. The pessimistic side of it would be that it just said a plant-like organism but it didn’t explicitly say it was a plant. There was no proof that life could have already existed in the planet. There was no proof it was a plant. It hadn’t been studied before.
But no matter how you look at this, it would just say that the future has many possibilities and that this is just one of them.
From the title, “What Lies Behind”, we may think of this as (1) What lies behind the purple rocks, (2) What lies behind the Earth after the death of the people, or even (3) What lies behind humanity after man had ceased to exist.
In ironic state, it could be something like “What Lies Ahead”: (1) What lies ahead of the future, (2) What lies ahead of the five who would eventually leave Earth to find a new place to live, or even (3) What lies ahead of the future of the people that they had left behind in Earth.
It is really up to you what you think lies behind or even ahead. There is just too many possibilities. If I could give this another title, it would be, “The Future of Possibilities”. Could you give me another title for this sci-fi story? Let me know. I’m eager to hear from you.
Date of Post: 03.26.14
Love is an open door
It will never be that
One can find loneliness in love
I approve in the saying
Love brings so much happiness
It is so wrong to say
Love will always bring hatred
And I always think that
Love can make anyone smile
One can never say that
I don’t believe in love anymore
Because I always think that
Love can make anyone smile
One can never say that
I don’t believe in love anymore
Because I always think that
Love brings joy
I am always in contradictory with the idea that
Love does not exist.
(Now make sure to read the title from right-to-left, then the poem from bottom-to-top!)
Date of Post: 03.26.14
First Edit: 03.26.14